Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Crying while I Clean the Closet

Am I the only one cries when they clean out their child's closet???  I'm not crying because it's hard or time consuming...I am crying because I'm pulling out precious memories!  I just folded up "the first day of Kindergarten blouse" that Heidi wore.  It's sparkly neckline and zebra print just scream her little name. She LOVED wearing that shirt and was so proud to go to school that day and ride the bus for the first time! Then I'm packing up the pink, cupcake pajamas she wore for a billion hours of cuddle time with me, not to mention Christmas morning.  Next I'm folding up her favorite dress from preschool...she was 4, little, and my sweetheart.  The list goes on and on. I have attached memories to many items of clothing and it would break my heart to get rid of them. Yes, I have the pictures but these are tangible items I can hold and feel.  The stains represent real days that happened in her special, little life. She wore these things.  She lived in them daily.  They are memories of special holidays, playtime in the dirt, cuddle time at night, first day of school, birthdays...the list goes on and on.  To take them out of closet is admitting these particular days, stages, special events and young, precious years are over.  I look back in my heart and just a second ago she was a toddler, she was in Kindergarten, she wore a princess nightgown, etc.  Now I am packing it all away and it makes me sad.  I do worry I might forget and I want to remember all of it!  So yes, I will get rid of some, save many, cry a lot of tears and eventually...the closet will be clean.  And, inevitably...six months to a year from now...it starts all over again.  :)